Walls

If you tear down these walls

You will find nothing to your liking

I'm a bomb in a birdcage

Trying to free myself of these bars

Only to find myself stuck

And wishing for impossible things

So if you like it or not

These tears cannot hold me any longer

And neither can this birdcage you put me in

War

When things feel hopeless

Bring out your gun

And get ready for war

New Years

My new years resolution is to not give a shit anymore

The hurt, confusion and pain I cried about at night

Who gives a fuck anymore? It can't hurt me anymore

It's not like I can feel anything anymore

Fuck the lies I will hear in the future

Fucking Piece of Shit

Honestly sometimes I think something is wrong with me. No matter how I try to trust someone with all of my heart - they end up breaking my poor little heart. I have made one of the biggest mistakes of my life to date I think. This fucking idiot does not seem like a disgusting cheating scumbag. But he might as well be. "Cheating" in my opinion is when the other partner goes out and seeks for "attention" elsewhere. This shit happened before and I don't know what to do. Honestly something in my mind has snapped once and for all. I'm hurt as hell but I will figure things out. We will see who gets the last laugh.

Old Habits Die Slowly

Just when I decide to change for the better

Old habits come back

Nothing dies quickly especially when

It has been ingrained into your soul

I am quickly spinning in a clock

Things passing by me

It's like deja vu on repeat

I'm sick of myself and who I've become

But can you say the same

You're not helping the situation any better

It's hard to swim against the current

When my body is drowning already

Can't pull me out of the water

I've been put here for good it seems